10 weeks in Surgery

So, hello!

I don't know where to start but I know I've been missing this blog so much. I haven't been writing properly for almost a year - not because there weren't things going on but because there are so much things happened in such short period of time I don't know where to begin.

Maybe to start... let me just say that I just finished my surgery rotation last week.

It was a-10-week full of tiring night shifts, being shouted at by our attendings due to our 'horrible attitude',  our daily tachycardia routine just before calling our attendings, many homeworks and so many other things that just made this surgery rotation were all about tears and laughter. 

It was tiring, but it was fun. 

The group I was with made it so much less stressful and tiring, I love them so much.

I learned a lot in the OR, I learned a lot during the night shifts in the emergency unit, I learned a lot during the day-clinic. 

I'm thankful for the opportunity. 

Now I'm in Radiology rotation, it's funny that I have a lot more free time that I'm no longer staying in the hospital for night shift (for the next 10 weeks). 

2018: being a junior doctor

The first two weeks of 2018 has been good so far I like it.

I turned 23 too this year, which is so weird because I don't feel like I'm an adult enough to be 23. But, here's one thing I realize that when you get older and older, birthday doesn't feel so special anymore.

It just feels like another ordinary day, except you exactly turn a year older.

Looking back to 2017, which was actually the most annoying year of my life when things seemed so in pieces, I'm so grateful that I'm here and doing what I'm doing right now. I'm grateful that I decided to continue my hospital rotation and here I am finally; waking up at 5 AM everyday, spending the whole day at the operation room wearing scrubs and having assisted around 25 surgeries everyday yet eventho I'm tired and my back aches every morning I wake up, I enjoy every bit of the whole process. 

I love the girls in my team. I love the hospital I work in. I love the people in the OR I get to spend time with everyday. I love the whole new experiences I get every single day. And I'm grateful. 

The whole process will take around 20 months until I finish every departments, which I'm sure won't be easy, and to finally be able working as a practicing doctor, I firstly must pass the national examination and take part in an internship program for a year. It's a long process, it's not going to be easy, but I think this is exactly what I want to do. And I'm, once again, grateful for this opportunity and of course, privilege. 

Insha Allah, I promise I'll do my very best and I'll never take things for granted.

On my 3rd night shift, we had an emergency surgery at 1 AM. There was a knock in our room, telling us to get ready and that time, it struck me that this is what it feels like to work in medical fields.

Your time is no longer yours only.

Lastly, this is a book I just ordered online. After finishing When Breath Becomes Air, I think I should read more books in medicine and finally, I decided to get this copy and I've enjoyed it so far.